By Erin Wilson
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December 16, 2021
We never ask to be thrust into a season of war… it usually sneaks up upon us when we least expect. The first explosion shocks us and shakes us to the core, but the ongoi ng ripples of battle can send us reeling as intensely as the initial strike we experienced. It was only a few weeks ago that I was nervously surveying the post-war landscape of my life. The grenades and explosions of 2020, coupled with the aftershocks of 2021, had taken their toll on my heart, mind, and body, finances, health and relationships. Taking inventory of the damage, I wasn’t sure what kind of future I would be walking into and how I would manage it. I tried to visualize myself moving forward in life, a little more broken, with a newly acquired health condition, ongoing depression and anxiety, splintered relationships, and undermined confidence. “It’ll be ok,” I heard myself say, “I can handle a bit of brokenness in my body, mind and soul, so long as it’s not complete devastation. I can get by with a little more anxiety… a little more depression. I can handle small problems in my body so long as they don’t turn into bigger ones.” I thought myself a hero for rallying myself in that moment, doing the right thing by motivating myself to cut my losses and limp along. Yes indeed, a hero, until moments later, when the interjecting, thundering voice of the Lord came, piercing my thoughts as He asked me: “Erin, WHY ARE YOU NEGOTIATING WITH A TERRORIST?” Had I heard right? Had I just been rebuked by God? “Why are you negotiating with a terrorist??”, He asked once again. “Erin, you are willing to give up ground that I’ve never asked you to give. This is not your season to limp forward; this is your season to RECOVER ALL.” Recover all? I wasn’t sure where in Scripture I had heard that before, but as I searched, the Lord led me to read the account of David in 1 Samuel 30. In this passage, we learn that David had just returned with his men after a season of warring victories, back to Ziklag, the place they were living with their families. When they arrived home, what they discovered waiting for them was absolutely devastating. Their homes had been destroyed, and their women, children and possessions had been carried away by the enemy. The landscape of their lives was in absolute ruins, and their grief insurmountable. The Bible says they “wept aloud until they had no strength left to weep. Their losses were incalculable. To make matters worse, the men blamed David for all of this and considered stoning him. In this moment of total devastation, David, the man after God's heart, did two things: first, he strengthened (encouraged) himself in the Lord, and second, he inquired of the Lord for what he should do next. The strategy of the Lord was clear: "Pursue, for you shall surely overtake them and without fail, recover all . ” What happened next was exactly as the Lord had declared. David took his men, pursued, overtook his enemies, and he RECOVERED ALL. In the end, nothing was lacking and nothing was missing… in fact, David acquired additional spoils for his trouble. As I read this account of David only weeks ago, I felt the strong unction of the Holy Spirit, that the season of trouble we have been in is giving way to a season of full recovery and of spoils. As long as I would STOP NEGOTIATING with loss, depression, fear, calamity, sickness, division and strife, I could actually position myself to hear the strategy of the Lord for FULL recovery and breakthrough. The first thing God showed me to do was to write a “RECOVER ALL” list. I wrote down every last sliver of loss I had experienced in this past season, and held it out it before the Lord, with my heart realigned to His expectation of healing, breakthrough and recovery. The second thing I felt the Lord say was to move this into a corporate experience. Our church has since created a “Recover All Wall” filled with taped up sheets of paper written by families outlining every loss they are believing to be recovered. As we pray for one another, and seek the Lord for strategies to recover all, the “Recover All Wall” will soon become a wall of testimony and breakthrough, prophesying to every future problem of the Lord's goodness and power. Finally, I have sought to do as David did during this season, and strengthen myself in the Lord. For me, this means a consistent reciting of the testimonies of my history with the Lord. I recount to myself—sometimes daily—the miracles He has performed throughout my life with Him. When I run out of my own testimonies, I have been actively seeking out other people’s testimonies of breakthrough and healing to help fuel my faith. Often, I will begin my day with a simple declaration of faith: "Today Lord, we will recover all!" The spoil I am believing for and actively pursuing in this season is the salvation of my friends and neighbours, the impartation of greater faith for miracles, and boldness in sharing the gospel. In only a matter of a few short weeks, I already have a list of testimonies growing—ways the Lord is “recovering all” in my life. Some are sudden sovereign interventions, and some are slowly evolving miracles as I walk forward in faith and perseverance. Each is a story of His faithfulness and every individual breakthrough becomes a corporate victory and testimony. As we leave the war zone and fix our eyes on the horizon of His promises, may we have greater and greater faith that the spoils and recoveries of this next season will far outshine and outweigh every loss and hurt we are leaving behind, and that this truly is our season to recover all.